Til death do us part...

Specially for the one.. whom I will share the rest of my life with...

Its just 9 months and 6 days to go before the day...
January 22, 2011...

From the first moment I set my eyes on you,
There is something about you that capture my heart,
As time goes by, love blossoms..
Your love has lead me through
And won my heart..

At the moment,
I knew deep down in my heart,
You are the one God has for me..

The path that we've walked through,
The journey that we've tread through together,
Worth more than all the riches of the world..

From this moment,
Our life are no longer two but one,
The road ahead is not easy,
But I'll walk with you,
Hands in hands, with one heart, one love...
We will go through those winding roads...

Till death do us part,
In times of goodness and sickness...
I will be there for you...

Tiada kata dapat ku lafazkan,
Tuk menyatakan cintaku padamu,
Seperti bintang di langit,
Hadirmu menyinari hidupku..

Ku yakini kesetianmu,
Ku jua berjanji setia selamanya,
Hanya kau satu,
Yang terpahat di hati ini..

Walau apa pun terjadi,
Cintaku padamu kan abadi...
Bersama kita menerokai,
Hidup yang akan kita bina bersama..

Bingkisan hati ini hanya untukmu....
Sayangku...





Composed By,
Joann Toh
16 April 2010
5.04pm

We love because God first love...

Complicated Simple Matter....

Haiz... how come such simple matter can turn out to be complicated... Learning human behavior is indeed a life time learning.. needs lotsa patience too... Neway, hope things will be settled and lay transparent soon and with good ending...

Joann Toh
4 April 10
10pm

Above all....

Easter celebration few hours back got me wondering and thinking...
During the drama, where they had 'Ah Bak' tied to the cross & push around..
Others was laughing .. cos it was a funny drama ...
But I just couldn't laugh .. I felt tears were forming at the corners of my eyes..
I could feel my throat tighten n painful...
My heart aches...

I couldn't bring myself to see when they acting the part of nailing him to the cross...
I looked away..
I knew if I look, I wouldn't be able to refrain my tears & I wouldn't be able to hold back my emotions..
I do not want to be 'special' crying away while others were laughing..
In my heart... there is no words good enough that I could use to express how I felt..
I could only say... 'THANK U GOD... THANK FOR U FOR DYING FOR ME... THANK U....'

When Peter denied God 3 times...
It keep me thinking..
'HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I DENY GOD IN MY LIFE?'
Many times... yes we may go to church every week or serving in the church... regular to cell...
But in our daily life... when there is decision to make...
Changes to make...
Lifestyles... Thoughts....Speech...
How many times we have deny God with our actions, speech & thoughts?

I admit I myself fail this many times..
Knowing the things that I need to do...
And yet I did not do..
Knowing the things I can't do..
But I did ....

Its so easy to sing during worship
'Lord I give u my heart.. I give you my soul...I live for you alone..
Every breath that I take, Every moment I'm awake.. Lord have your way in me.....'

But when it come to reality...
when God asked to stop the relationship with a certain person many years back..
Can I do it??
Many times.. when come to making decision & the need to let go of something..
Many times I realize, that will be the time where I deny God ...
Where I choose to turn a deaf ear...

Thank you God for being so patient with me all these years...
Thank you for not giving up on me...

THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL....

Never had I ever imagine that I am so blessed to be able to know THE ONE...
THE ONE tat love unconditionally...
THE ONE tat love me jus as I am...
What have I done to deserve love like this?

On the night many years back...
U were alone... the most lonely, fearful and psychologically tormenting moment of your whole life..
You were fighting with your own emotions.. part of you willing to go through an yet another part of the human you feeling the fear...
But in the end, you laid aside the agonizing feeling that is erupting inside you..

All for me ...

The time came... you were taken away..
You were accused... You were tortured...
You were mocked... You were beaten...
You were kicked... You were spit on...
Your flesh was torn apart...You was in great pain and bleeding..

And yet, you endure all those JUST FOR ME...
You could have just walked away.. let me carry my own guilt & shame...
But above everything else.. You thought of me...
And you went through all that for me
Simply because YOU LOVE ME...

How great is Your love upon me...
And Your love has won my heart...

You laid aside Your Majesty
Gave up everything for me
Suffered at the hands
Of those You had created

You took all my guilt and shame
When you died and rose again
Now today You reign
And heaven & earth exalted

I really want to worship You My Lord
You have won my heart and I am Yours
Forever and ever
I will love You

You are the only who died for me
Gave Your life to set me free
So I life my voice to You
In adoration...

2 April, Friday
7.24pm