Been out of blog for sometimes...not abandoning it though...
Went through crazy weeks...
Assignments, thesis & exams...
Just wen I thought everything is going to slow down & thinking of taking a rest after exam (13 Dec)
More things pop up......
Was at JB for ESP camp & received a phone call from dad.......
telling me.....
JOANN, PREM AH YEE JUST PASS AWAY MINUTES AGO....
I was lik.....what??!!!
Took few minutes for reality to sank in.....
Tears in eyes.....trying not to let it flow down...trying to contain it at the eyes....
Trying to hide to feeling of lost with smiles.....
Finally.... as I stepped into the car....
I allowed myself to release all the emotions....
Cried & cried.... feeling the lost.... feeling the sorrow in heart losing someone dear....
Memories with her...flashed back into my mind....
Two weeks back in the hospital.... massaging her feet and praying for her...
Seeing her on the hospital bed... giving up...looking weak....
Remember her saying in between her breath that day...
" I FEEL SO TIRED AFTER WAR...I WANT GIVE UP... I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT ANYMORE, Y WAN DIE ALSO SO DIFFICULT? U HELP ME KNOCK MY HEAD AND MAKE ME FAINT LA.... I WANT REST"
I could do was continue to pray for her as my hands massing her legs...
Prayed PSALMS 23 over her while fighting the wave of emotions building up in me....
"Lord, please don't let her go before she encounter You in her life"
Left the room with tears in my eyes....
Wanted to return other day, plan to do so after my exams which suppose to be this few days...
But..... she already left this world to the other world....
Also went I went to DOULOS.... she was the one that arrange the Insurance Agent for me and bought for me travel insurance despise her feeling not well that time, after chemo treatment...
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More traveling to do.... from JB today.... to Ipoh tomorrow..... Funeral will be Tuesday morning...
and back to KL on Tuesday for CLEO final photo session on Wednesday evening.
Went through crazy weeks...
Assignments, thesis & exams...
Just wen I thought everything is going to slow down & thinking of taking a rest after exam (13 Dec)
More things pop up......
Was at JB for ESP camp & received a phone call from dad.......
telling me.....
JOANN, PREM AH YEE JUST PASS AWAY MINUTES AGO....
I was lik.....what??!!!
Took few minutes for reality to sank in.....
Tears in eyes.....trying not to let it flow down...trying to contain it at the eyes....
Trying to hide to feeling of lost with smiles.....
Finally.... as I stepped into the car....
I allowed myself to release all the emotions....
Cried & cried.... feeling the lost.... feeling the sorrow in heart losing someone dear....
Memories with her...flashed back into my mind....
Two weeks back in the hospital.... massaging her feet and praying for her...
Seeing her on the hospital bed... giving up...looking weak....
Remember her saying in between her breath that day...
" I FEEL SO TIRED AFTER WAR...I WANT GIVE UP... I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT ANYMORE, Y WAN DIE ALSO SO DIFFICULT? U HELP ME KNOCK MY HEAD AND MAKE ME FAINT LA.... I WANT REST"
I could do was continue to pray for her as my hands massing her legs...
Prayed PSALMS 23 over her while fighting the wave of emotions building up in me....
"Lord, please don't let her go before she encounter You in her life"
Left the room with tears in my eyes....
Wanted to return other day, plan to do so after my exams which suppose to be this few days...
But..... she already left this world to the other world....
Also went I went to DOULOS.... she was the one that arrange the Insurance Agent for me and bought for me travel insurance despise her feeling not well that time, after chemo treatment...
************************
More traveling to do.... from JB today.... to Ipoh tomorrow..... Funeral will be Tuesday morning...
and back to KL on Tuesday for CLEO final photo session on Wednesday evening.
